While this website is made for my programming, programs, and games, every so often I like to write about my life-long struggle with, uh, well. Hmm. I should start off by explaining that no psychologist has been able to pinpoint what I have. I am a 60% chance ADHD positive, 48% chance autism positive, 60% chance bipolar depressive, 90% chance GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) positive, DSPD (delayed sleep-phase disorder) positve, sensitive to touch, high memory and IQ person. Yes, it’s fascinating what all of the tests revealed.
Anyways, so for Christmas my mother bought me a light therapy lamp to attempt to help my issues. I’d never tried one of these before and it seemed odd that light would in any way help me. I read up that many people have had success if they had SAD (seasonal affective disorder) and other forms of depression other than bipolar. I never read up about someone having bipolar and it working. Maybe I was just unlucky in my searches. Regardless, I started using it the two days later.
Now, what happened was, for 4 or so days it did nothing. I mean, absolutely nothing. Day 5 is when I noticed changes. My concentration, overall happiness, and mood had shifted from my typical downer/dark side (unless I’m on a manic day) to a constant non-manic but happy and highly focused mood. The most significant thing I noticed though is my focus. It’s unbelievably good in comparison to what it was.
How can I confirm this? Games and work. Games are one of the key ways I can determine what kind of mood or swing I’m in. When I heavily play games and do no work for days I am on a low swing. However, it was day 5 that I pulled away from games and wanted to do work. Yes, I wanted to work. That’s how I knew something weird was happening. Ever since then I’ve been doing work and taking two day breaks Friday/Saturday and have not missed a beat for nearly a month now (this has never happened before, I’m not joking). Even with caffeine I could never be this consistent.
So I had a thought to write this post but to mention to try it if you have ADD/ADHD. Why? Because whether or not you know it, all of the disorders that I mentioned that I am partially diagnosed for are all genetically linked. I had a suspicion for several years now (there was evidence from ages ago that show a relationship) and last year scientists confirmed it. I thought that if it worked for me and is as a positive side-effect helping manage my ADD then it might help others as well. So, if you’re not dead broke and have ADD/ADHD, give light therapy a try. Just do it. There’s a chance you might be surprised with the results like I was.
A final note, aside from caffeine, which I don’t drink every day, light therapy is the only thing I’m using right now to help me manage my ADD and it is very apparent that it’s working. I’ll have a follow-up post in a few months to confirm whether or not light therapy was continually useful over a long period of time.